From my own assortment of personal life lessons...
Whenever we say, "I should.." or "I should have.." it's an invitation for the ego mind to create a backdrop of guilt. The hidden translation is, "I feel guilty for not doing..." Guilt always requires punishment which equals some form of duality, or separation from love.
Ever notice that? Exercising, taking solitary time for yourself, looking for the work you secretly desire, taking that art or cooking class you've always wanted to take, or that weekend road trip, etc..
The response for myself and others is, "Should I/you really?" or "Only if you want to." So, stop creating the illusion of guilt that requires punishment for wanting something good or secretly NOT wanting what someone else thinks you should want.. Instead, be courageous! Be true! Announce, "I want to.. and "I will..." or "I don't" or "I won't."
This lesson in non-duality is removing the illusion of guilt and getting to truth - will or won't without guilt interference. Then you won't be unconsciously moved by your pesky ego to punish yourself. Being true is love and not separation!
Go for it!
Live in beauty and be well ~ Triza Schultz
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